3 Apr 2012

IS THIS MY WORTH?


There's nothing in the world like the devotion of a married woman. It's a thing no married man knows anything about.
- Oscar Wilde



We are proud women of this great nation. We are progressing at an exponential rate. We went to moon (Kalpana Chawla). We worked relentlessly for the country and for humanity (Indira Gandhi, Kiran Bedi, Mother Terrassa) We showed our identity in the field of sports too (Anju Boby George, Jhulan Goswami, Sania Mirza, Tejasvani sawant, Jackie Johner-Kersee).

'The Birth of Venus' by Sandro Botticelli
But one question always teases. What is my worth? I got lot of achievements in my life. In India people respect me also but still they don’t know my worth. Sometimes they insult me by seeing my face’s black colour my face structure. They humiliate me at each pace of my progress but I am moving ahead with a bright smile. 

     Sometimes one important man of my life says that “I am the most beautiful girl which he got in his fortunate destiny”, but suddenly a day comes and the same person says (behind my back) the same about another girl. But still I smile, I know my worth. But when will that day come and when will he understand my worth?

Mine was an arranged marriage. On the first night of my marriage my husband said I don’t look good and he did this marriage for his parent’s happiness. Now, after 2 years of my marriage, I have 2 children, one boy and one girl. I take care of them; even my husband loves them a lot but he doesn't love me, because I am not beautiful for him. If I am not beautiful then I must ask, how did I get 2 children? Do I look beautiful only on   ‘BED’? Otherwise I don’t? Still I am happy because I have two beautiful children who made my life more beautiful. Strange but true he can see my beauty on BED only.

 I have grown up with some sentiments and morals which my parents taught me. But when I follow those morals and sentiments to protect my freedom, to maintain my respect in this society, my parents themselves suggest me not to follow those morals. I was raped by many men some men raped me through their eyes, some raped through their cheap language, few tried to touch me but still I am “PAVITRA” (pure) like Ganga water stood on my ground. But the unfortunate thing is my special ones were not with me. Don’t you think I deserve more than that? And I know for certain, I am not alone.

But yet proudly I am saying we are “girls” we are “women” we suffered a lot but we fought all battles of our unfortunate fate like a “JHANSI KI RANI, LAXMIBAI” we are Durga, we are Kali. We have changed this world and we will change no matter who is with us. We don’t need any mere paper law. We can protect ourselves. One change which I want to see in this society that we want to become independent; we don’t want to beg in front of anyone. The day when I will be able to protect my rights I will proudly say yes, there is no discrimination. Discrimination is nothing it’s just only a thinking of orthodox people who tried their best to make women’s status inferior. I want to see each and every girl to be free from all sorts of fear.
                       
                                                                                   !!    Neither am I puppet nor I a doll
                                                         I am a divine ray, who can change any one’s soul!!

-Monica Mishra
(Image taken from here)

(Submitted as an entry for 'Stayfree- Time to Change Competition'  www.facebook.com/sftimetochange )