An Open Letter to God..

Dear god,

Thank you for giving me such an awesome life.  I am a 22 year old girl who is fully furnished by you and ready to become a woman very soon.  At the age of 13 (8th standard)  I received my menstrual periods for the first time and believe me I was really scared to see that blood and that day for the first time I gathered my courage and faced first problem of my life.  

Day by day my physical appearances were changing a lot.  I noticed that my breasts are becoming bigger in size like my mom and men society of yours used to look at my breasts without having a single percent shame. 

I got habitual of this lusty behaviour of men who used to rape me by their eyes rather than touching my body. Once upon a time one relative of mine tried to press my breasts and also wanted to take advantage of dark night and my innocent childhood but I gathered my courage and faced this second problem of my life. I had no other choice except to maintain distance from those bastards.

My looks were not that great but still I had received  many love proposals.  None of them I liked and I said no to them so they threatened me to say "Yes" for their love or else they would be telling the society some non existing bad story about me and my character.  I had to tackle the situation and being a female boon of yours I had to bear in order to protect status and reputation of my parents. Still,  I gathered my courage and sorted out this third problem of my life.

I was sorting out my problems from the age of 11 and trust me I didn't tell anyone that I am suffering from such problems as I had fear of losing my parent's trust. I never complained to you but whenever I used to go to parlour for waxing and eye-brows; trust me I always cursed you for making me a girl. 

Personally I do not have any issues with you. You made us beautiful, COA (centre of attraction) and the most brave creature. When I turned to 16 I got to face love drama which is quite natural and normal in this present world. Though love thoughts of a girl and boys are always different and due to those differences which you have made in us; I had to separate from love of my life.

Then a new phase of my life started and I decided to work so that I can be independent but your society never trusted my honesty and work efficiency and blamed me that I am a gone character girl.  At work place as well I was always discriminated by others.

Whenever in my family if it would be a question between a girl or boy I always had to shut my mouth as I had no choice because I am a girl and I can not compete with my brothers. My parents always favoured my brothers because they are going to stay with my parents not me. 

When I turned to 22 my family started looking for some young, handsome and rich men to whom I could give myself. Well... that's not the big deal but I had to give my body and soul to some stranger and it became a mysterious part of  my life; which is still unsolved to me.    

I am scared of getting married. I always wonder why do we girls have to leave our own family after marriage? Why this tradition is only made for women?? I am scared of getting married and the reasons are quite obvious.

I would have to leave my family where I am born and raised. I would have to dedicate my whole life to someone else's family and that person would come to be known as my husband. My life is not ready to accept that drastic changes which I have never imagined when I used to be a kid. 

I would have to wear all ritual things like Mangalsutra, Sindoor etc. but my husband would  not  be even wearing a single thing which can prove that he is married.

I am scared of your traditions and cultures which you have created and made in the fate of women. 

Yes, One good thing is really happened to me in this journey of my life and it was that physically I never raped by anyone. I never faced any drastic physical abuse in my life till now and that is totally by  your grace and blessings. 

Just last request; if you want me to make a girl once again in my next birth, if the philosophy of reincarnation is true then it is my humble request to you that send me to some civilised country or world but don't send me to India ever. 

Women are not safe in this country as We do not have guts to become next Vishakha and Nirbhaya (A very well known and land mark rape cases in India).

Thank you for making me a Woman.......

  Yours Truly,

Female Human