चलो आज ये वादा करते है

चलो आज ये वादा करते है 

तुम मुझसे कोई सवाल नहीं करोगे 

मैं तुम्हे कोई जवाब नहीं दूंगी 

आज फिर से अजनबी बनने का ये नाटक करते है 

चलो आज ये वादा  करते है 

तुम मुझे भूल जाओगे 

मैं तुम्हे कभी याद नहीं करुँगी 

आज फिर से बेदिल होने का स्वाँग करते है 

चलो आज ये वादा करते है 

तुम हो ही नहीं इस दुनिया मैं 

मैं गुम हो गयी हूँ किसी और जहाँ मैं 

आज फिर से लुका छुपी का खेल खेलते है 

चलो आज ये वादा करते है 

नहीं मुहब्बत तुम्हे मुझसे 

नहीं शिकवा मुझे कोई तुमसे 

आज फिर से एक दूसरे के वजूद पर शक करते है 

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मुहब्बत की कश्मकश कुछ ऐसी भी रही........

साहिल, 

उसकी आँखों का वो एक आंसू मुझे नींद न देने वाली कश्मकश में फंसा गया। 

नम आँखों के बीच उसका मुस्कुराता चेहरा न जाने कब अनकहा अनजाना सा एहसास दिला गया। 

यूँ तो ढूंढती थी जिसे में भीड़ भरी दुनिया में, वह चलते चलते मुझसे यूँ ही अचानक टकरा गया। 

कुछ न कह कर भी मुझे वो सबकुछ कह गया, नम आँखों का अफसाना वो यूँ ही बयां कर गया। 

रात भर जागकर ये सोचती रही कि उससे मुहब्बत करूँ या उसकी इबादत करूँ। 

उसके साथ आशियाना बनाऊं या अपने दिल में उसके नाम का आशियाना सजाऊँ। 

उसे दिल के पास रखूं या इस दिल को उसके नाम कर दूँ। 

तुम ही कहो साहिल कैसे अपने जज़्बात उसके सामने बयां करूँ ??

काश सुन पाता वो इन सांसो के नगमे को जिसमे उसके सुर समाते हैं। 

काश पढ़ पाता वो इन शब्दों को जो मुझे उसके और करीब जोड़ जाते है। 

काश समझ पाता वो अनकही आँखों का अफसाना जिसकी सरगम उसकी सांसो की धुन सुनाती है।

एक साहिल ही है उसका नाम, जिसका नाम लेकर साहिल की लहर मिट कर भी अमर हो जाती है...  

                                                                   तुम्हारी,    

                                                                          लहर  .......   

 

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Best Father, unfaithful husband- A letter to father

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Beloved Papa,

First of all I would like to say thanks to you and mom as you both gave me birth. You and mom didn’t kill me when I was in mom’s womb. I know that I was your unwanted child as you already had decent family planning but I came in this world by mistake. After an attempt of abortion I still survived completely by god’s grace.

Papa, I really love you a lot and I would be loving you this much even after my marriage and I know that you also love me a lot. You always have taken proper care of me. You always have saved me from the hardship of this artificial and filthy world. I always wanted to be your son instead of your daughter so that I can live with you forever and I agree that you never discriminated with me on gender basis. You taught me several things that helped me to survive in this world.

Today, I am a proud woman only because of you as you gave me proper education; you taught me moral values and most importantly you always encouraged me to fight for my rights. I remember how you supported me when the entire society was against me when I took a decision to call off my engagement.

We always have shared an awesome bonding of father and daughter. I always wish to god to give everyone a father like you but I do not wish that god should give anyone a husband as you are.

You were/are amazing father but not amazing husband. Since my childhood I have seen those fights between you and mom and after each fight mom used to cry a lot. I know that you had past affairs too and I believe you still have. I always ask myself that why didn’t mom leave you even after knowing that you have extra marital-affairs?? May be an illiterate woman from a rigid Indian Community do not have that right to access in order to protect her own self respect.

I don’t want my future husband/partner to be like you. Actually I do not expect any honesty or loyalty from male society as you have sown that seed in me. I have seen your cold behaviour towards my mom and that behaviour of yours turned me so stone-hearted that today I do not believe in the concept of marriage.

I know you were/are with mom because you had/have to be with her in order to perform social rituals and rites towards this artificial society. But your broken marriage has always given me a tremendous pain inside and consequentially I started getting scared from marriage talks.

I am afraid of commitment. I always feel if you’re this trait comes within me; or if my future husband/partner would do what you have done to my mom. I know it would become painful for you as well to see my sufferings but I guess that would be the only possible way that could make you to feel my mom’s pain.

Somewhere I try my best to understand your situations but being a woman I am completely against of sharing my husband/partner with any other woman.

You always ask me that what sort of person I want in my life as my future husband/partner I always scream inside me that “definitely not like you”. Yet, I still love my father in the same proportion as I hate my mother’s husband but I understand my mother’s husband’s love life and somewhere it was one of the reasons I never have  interfered between you and mom.

I know relations are complicated and confusing but you have made them in this way and I run from commitments because I don’t want to repeat this history. I don’t want to be that victim which sounds like my mom.

I want to stay alone forever if not alone then probably with the person without any expectations and commitments because I am afraid of commitments in real life. 

Yours,

 Unwanted Child.

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Its completely an imaginary letter intended to tell the men society that how you treat your wife is going to be judged by your own daughter, so be nice with your wife.... avoid domestic violence. Some domestic violence can be something similar to what I have stated in this letter... and this violence remains unheard within the four corners of a room.    

Love At Third Sight....

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Heart is sounding deep inside

Pleasant morning shining bright

Thoughts are dancing in the dark night

Probably it is the sign of love at third sight

Why welkin looks so crimson??

A stranger I found so known

Single jiffy my glance only at phone

These strange feelings for me are so unknown

I saw him, I met him, and I spoke to him

In first instance feeling of love at first sight were so dim

Aloofness from him converted into a sin

Yes, love at third side happened to me with him....

To be continued........ (here)

Marriage- How it impacts Love-Relationships...

 

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"Rahul, I do Love you, it’s just that I don't want to get married now. I am just 24 and I want to explore my life, that's it." 

I never wanted to be so rude with him but he was not ready to understand my single point and broke all his relations with me.

I remember when I met him for the first time 6 years ago in my law college; it was indeed a best moment of my life. We both were so happy but this marriage part always used to upset me as I needed some time before to get married. I was not that type of girl who could handle typical Indian traditional families and I knew that I cannot act like best Bahu, Bhabhi etc. 

It’s been 2 years we haven't spoke to each other but I really didn't break up with him it was all circumstances which compelled me to get separated from him. Yes, I do love him, I really cannot forget him. He was my first kiss, my first love and my first sex. 

His soul gave a very essential fragrance and impact to my character which helped me to glow even more as a better person.

I know that the word "Sex" creates so much excitement in everyone's mind but it's just an amazing incident which makes relationship even more beautiful and fills life with flowery fragrance of love. He was my life and I guess still he is and being one of the reason which didn't ever allow me to get involve with anyone in love sense.

He still lives in my memories and still I cherish those moments which I had spent with him.  

I remember that time which helped us to come closer and it was---------

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"It was Saturday and he called me up--------

"Let’s meet up today will go for a movie, what say??"

"Yeah sure"...

12 o" clock noon we met at Inox theatre in Mumbai and after watching Two-states movie we rushed ahead to our respective destinations.

I remember that day when he was hesitating to ask me for something but I couldn't figure it out; after a jiffy he said-

"Will you mind to stay at my flat?? As we can spend some good time together"

I was not so shocked at all because I had lot of male friends with whom I used to hang out in group and without even giving a second thought I nodded in affirmative way as I was already excited to see my beloved's personal stuff.

We reached at his flat and then I saw such a horror part of his flat which one can see when few guys live all alone in PG.

It was the dirtiest place which I had ever seen in my life. We had lots of formal talk, we were dating each other too but we never had any romantic sort of moments during initial period of our relationship as we both were two different persons our choices and likeness were totally opposite to each other.

After seeing his smelly flat; I was really not willing to stay there for a second also but just for the sake of his happiness I barely managed to stay and that decision of mine changed my life. I had sex for the first time and from that day onwards our life also changed and relationship too.

We became so crazy for each other which I never expected that a girl like me can do so. Indeed it was a best part of my life and my relationship grew even stronger after having that amazing moment together with my lover.  

But as usual it turns mandatory after a period of time to decide about marriage and I was not that sort of person who would prefer to get married so early.

And that decision impacted my love- story too.

He proposed me for marriage for which I was not ready atleast for few years and that gave forever impact to my life and today I am 35 still sweet single and madly in love with him".

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But I still love him because for me marriage doesn’t impact relationship and in India for almost 80% population marriage impacts so much that they break their relationships too if their partner seeks some time to get cozy with the concept of marriage. 

For me marriage does not play as essential role as my feelings. Marriage is just an institution which validate the physical intimation of couples. Indeed its important but it should not come at the cost of your partner's happiness.

One question always run in my mind that “When you love someone so truly then how come such a small & tiny issue becomes so relevant that you become least bother for your relationship over man-made regulations which is known as marriage??

 

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McCain Date with my Sweetheart........

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My lover, who is sweet by heart and salty by tummy; who is a foodie, blogger, software engineer, story writer, poet and above all these he is a best boyfriend in this world.

It’s not just that my lover is my only priority; beside my lover I also love my 10 year old niece, my parents, my best friend and my darling sister. If I count then overall there are 10 people who all are my heartbeats. Without them I am just like niddle without thread, shoes without socks and winter without blanket.

Fortunately or unfortunately to say that abovementioned heartbeats of mine are foodies.  And to make them happy I always need to cook for them their favourite dishes.

My lover who is a pure vegetarian and my remaining loved ones are non-vegetarians including me too. It is a dilemma for me to satisfy their hunger need with their favourite dishes. But good thing is that my non-vegetarian loved ones do prefer to eat Veg food if the taste of a veg dish is extraordinary. 

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If you see then you will come to know that there are numerous readymade snacks are available in the markets which are good in taste but any guesses which one is being most famous these days??? Well.. Yes, it McCain snacks; who else it can be???

Smiling McCain snacks has a power to change your dull dinner date into an awesome dinner date. Now will see how it improved my dinner date-

Being a hardcore non-vegetarian Brahmin girl it was really traumatising for me to cook any vegetarian dish but as I mentioned earlier my lover is a vegetarian. Cooking veg dishes were always a headache for me.

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But as it is very famous saying “if you want to enter in the heart of a gentleman whom you love, you should have expertise in cooking because his heart ways go from his tummy” and Yes, it was completely true in my case.  

My lover, being a vegetarian foodie gentleman; it was a tough challenge for me to win his heart as his mom was a great cook and his expectations from me was much more.

One fine day I invited him for a date. Well I know it looks awkward when girl calls a guy for a date but my mind is quite open enough in this regard. No one was available at my home except my elder sister who was aware of my relationship. I called up my bf and informed him that today he has to have dinner at my home. He was excited but scared too and affirmed fir the same in a sarcastic way.  

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It was 11 am when I officially invited him for a date so I had complete day to prepare something special for my dinner date. I planned to prepare Paneer Tikka, Chapati, Curd Curry and his favourite Gajar ka Halwa.

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I requested my sister to bring some ingredients which wasn’t available in our kitchen subsequently she bought those ingredients and handed over the bag to me. While checking the ingredients bag I saw packet of McCain.

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Out of curiosity I asked her what the reason for buying a packet of McCain is. She said just fry this smiling McCains in a pan with some oil then see a charm of you dinner date.

I was glad to see my sister’s interest in my dinner date. By 6.50 pm I was almost done with my cooking. The only thing which was pending was McCain to fry.

Considering it as easy work I preferred to fry McCain in the end after getting ready for my lovely sweetheart. Exact at 7.30 pm I got a call from my beloved and he informed me that he has reached to station and will take another 25 minutes to reach at my home.

After getting ready I went inside the kitchen to finish up my last task of the day. I pour some edible oil in a pan to fry smiley McCain. After fry it was looking very crispy and elegant. The aroma of that was really seductive.

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As a part of experiment I decorated some separate coins of McCain with cheese which was getting melt on hot McCain and also added aloo bhujiya sev on top of some McCain coins. At last served it in a plate with coriander and pudina.

The moment my lover entered in my home he was happy to see me in a dress which he had gifted me. He greeted my sister nicely and then I got some cold drinks for him. After an hour of chit-chat we proceeded towards dining table where I had kept everything ready.

He glanced at each and every dish but he was quite surprised to see McCain smiley coins.  He tasted one slice of it and started complimenting the McCain smileys. He asked me how did I make it then I showed him a packet of McCain. He was really surprise to see how tasty snacks they have managed to serve. He actually complemented the brand and its efforts for such extraordinary packet of snacks.

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This is how my dinner date became the most cherishable moment of our love life with the help of McCain.

     Checkout McCain Recipe which made my dinner date a complete package of romantic dinner date. 

To know more about McCain snacks click here.

मेरे boyfriend की बारात

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आई खबर कुछ ऐसी के सुनके दिल खुश हो गया,
वो और कुछ नहीं मेरे हमसफ़र के दूसरे सफर का पैगाम था| 
लाल रंग की स्याही से उसके शादी का कार्ड था|
जिसपे उसका और उसकी would be wife का नाम था|

उसे लगा की वो real life  का Shahrukh Khan है, 
और में उसकी याद में रोने वाली Kuch Kuch Hota Hai  की Kajol;
पर हूँ मैं आज की नारी सिर्फ बच्चे पैदा करना, खाना पकाना and प्रियतम की याद में रोना, 
is not alone my life's goal.

I wish him all the very best for his newly married life.
I hope he would live peacefully with his new wife.

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सोचा उसे एक Gift भी दे दूँ, उसकी Life में ख़ुशी का एक लम्हा और दे दूँ| 
थोड़े पैसे बचाकर उसे एक Honeymoon package भी  gift कर दूँ|

उसी दरम्यान उसकी शादी के बाद मेरी Scholarship का Letter आया| 
London में  Masters करने का मैंने नसीब पाया|

सुनके ये खबर वह थोड़ा झल्लाया| 
आँखों के नीचे उसके अँधेरा छाया|

मैंने Oxford Univeristy में  top करके दिखाया|
इस बात पे मुझे एक अच्छी  job का call letter आया| 

मैंने ज़िन्दगी के हर gift को प्यार से अपनाया, 
शायद इसीलिए भगवन ने मुझे एक ideal husband से मिलवाया|
मेरी कहानी से एक मिली एक नसीहत के प्यार के लिए ज़िन्दगी को क़ुरबान मत करो, 
ज़िन्दगी को प्यार से Quran की तरह जियो, पढ़ो सीखो और उस ज़िन्दगी देने वाले का हमेशा शुक्रिया करो| 

A positive pace for those who feels that after an unsuccessful love story life comes to an end.

 "Successful love after unsuccessful life".

An Open Letter to Current (BF)

Dear Boy Friend,

You say that you love me a lot.  Yes, I agree with you and I believe you but do tell me one thing "Am I really your love??"  You still weave stories of your pasts. You still do publicity of your first love which I was not. I remained silent and thought about my sweet seventeen affair which was mutually murdered by me and my sweetheart.

You feel your past and I miss my past can you tell me which sort of love is that??

I am still in the contact with my past is this the reason which bothers you a lot??  Or you know my situations very well as you are also traveler in the train in which I also travel for some reason; what not.

We started our journey together few years back, thought ingredients of love in our life we will not lack.

Every time whenever I read your diary which always has different pages for different girls made me tensed. Is this your habit of love? Or you truly love me?

Believe me something is fishy between us.  Either you are wrong or I am, or may be the moments which we seeing and facing are being bitchy a lot.

Well that's not my concern, but somewhere I started receiving a pang of pain by reading your old diary day by day.

Should I stop reading your diary? Or should I stop my detective mind.  Do help me whether to be with you or should I also relive in my past forever??

Our pasts are creating and spreading aloofness between us. Kindly help me to sort it out  as fast as we can. If we truly love then let’s bury our past and start a new day with love which we did and still do…….

………… till the eternity.  

Yours,

Current love story :P :P

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ज़िन्दगी की रफ़्तार में, मेरी एक तलाश.......

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उसके अक्स की छाप ऐसी पड़ी मेरी रूह पे न जाने कब मेरी रूह उसकी दिवानगी में खो गयी।  

हुई कुछ इस तरह मुलाक़ात उससे के न जाने कब उसकी शख़्सियत को हम ख़ुदा मान बैठे। 

यूँ तो उससे नायब कई सितारे देखे थे आसमानो में हमने,

पर जब उसकी शख्सियत इस दिल को छु गयी, तब वही एक अनोखा सितारा बनके  मेरे दिल को रोशन करने लगा।

नशा था उसका ऐसा जो शाम ढलते ढलते और कामयाब  होने लगा।

रूबरू हुआ उससे ये दिल ए नादाँ मेरा जब वो मेरे नसीब में धीरे धीरे खुदा की रज़ा में तब्दील होता गया।

सजदा किया उस वक़्त उस खुदा को मैने जब उसने मेरी तमन्ना को उसके वजूद का एक नायाब अक्स दे दिया। 

मेरी मुहब्बत  की स्याही से उसका नाम मेरी रूह पे अंकित कर दिया।

अंकित हुआ उसका नाम मेरे दिल पर।

या था वह अंकित जिसका सपना कभी इन आँखों ने एक कच्ची लड़खड़ाती उम्र में देखा था,

वही सपना सच हुआ और उसका नाम मेरे दिल पर अंकित हुआ। 

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