मुहब्बत की कश्मकश कुछ ऐसी भी रही........

साहिल, 

उसकी आँखों का वो एक आंसू मुझे नींद न देने वाली कश्मकश में फंसा गया। 

नम आँखों के बीच उसका मुस्कुराता चेहरा न जाने कब अनकहा अनजाना सा एहसास दिला गया। 

यूँ तो ढूंढती थी जिसे में भीड़ भरी दुनिया में, वह चलते चलते मुझसे यूँ ही अचानक टकरा गया। 

कुछ न कह कर भी मुझे वो सबकुछ कह गया, नम आँखों का अफसाना वो यूँ ही बयां कर गया। 

रात भर जागकर ये सोचती रही कि उससे मुहब्बत करूँ या उसकी इबादत करूँ। 

उसके साथ आशियाना बनाऊं या अपने दिल में उसके नाम का आशियाना सजाऊँ। 

उसे दिल के पास रखूं या इस दिल को उसके नाम कर दूँ। 

तुम ही कहो साहिल कैसे अपने जज़्बात उसके सामने बयां करूँ ??

काश सुन पाता वो इन सांसो के नगमे को जिसमे उसके सुर समाते हैं। 

काश पढ़ पाता वो इन शब्दों को जो मुझे उसके और करीब जोड़ जाते है। 

काश समझ पाता वो अनकही आँखों का अफसाना जिसकी सरगम उसकी सांसो की धुन सुनाती है।

एक साहिल ही है उसका नाम, जिसका नाम लेकर साहिल की लहर मिट कर भी अमर हो जाती है...  

                                                                   तुम्हारी,    

                                                                          लहर  .......   

 

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I was Loving you not Using you.....!!

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We care for others point of view so much that sometimes we ignore our own thinking. Why does it happen? May be because we want to prove others that we aren’t wrong but have we ever thought why are we proving? Instead of having long discussions on WhatsApp groups or FB messenger why can’t we just let it go?? May be just because we want to show others that how good human beings we are!!

Life is so strange. Sometimes you fall in love and everything looks so beautiful. We give numerous perpetual future promises for some non existing events. And unexpectedly after few years you feel out of love and everything looks so stupid and consequentially people break their love relations and everything looks so ugly. Some people feel to commit suicide due to failure of love life that I always have found more worst than love failure.

Why can’t we be happy when we take/give breakups?? Can love be successful only when both the parties are involved? No, it is not necessary. We can be happy even after our breakups. Break up is nothing just a process that slowly removes the layer of blindness from your eyes.

And in this journey of breakups and patch-ups we become the time pass conversation for some other third person. Why can’t we follow the policy of confidentiality even after our breakups??

We misinterpret everything in our life. Likeness looks love, love looks likeness and this is how life turns into a mess. We always misinterpret love. Love isn’t about giving pain to your partner; love isn’t about giving inferior feelings to your partner; love isn’t about being rude to your partner; Love isn’t about hating when you are no more together.

Love was never boastful and it cannot be as it has believed only in giving. It is sad to see some people use the words like “he/she used me” and sometimes they hate that person because he/she left them. If your love dies when that person leaves you then sorry it wasn’t love only. I do not mean to say that go for one sided love but I mean to say instead of showing hatred, anger and using rustic words about your partner why can’t you just accept it the way you had accepted them when they used to love you??.  

When both the partners love equally indeed it is the best feeling in the world that cannot be defined by anyone. Love is true when you love someone with the flow of river and losses your identity completely by diluting yourself into an ocean of love.

Does love happen once?? Well, it is always difficult to answer. I never believed in the concept of number of love as I don’t think that love happens once, twice or thrice I just believe that love happens and it can happen at any point of time.

And you should admire your love when you are still together when everyone opposed you for being together but still you stood for your love without caring for society at large and number of friends at small. Admiration gives nothing substantial but fills you with emotional strength. 

When you are in love you actually devote into each other emotionally, physically and spiritually instead of using each other. 

Respect your partner’s decision even when their decision is against your love. It’s easy to fall in love but it’s difficult to love them when they don’t love you anymore. Marriage is not a permanent solution for making your partner completely yours forever.

Sometimes love can happen at the worst situation. Nothing is wrong or right when you are in love it just happens without any reason. If there is any reason to love someone then surely it’s not love. Love is like water- pure, pious and in the end of your day it gives you contentment.    

“Love cannot be jealous, love cannot be boastful, it cannot be selfish, and it cannot be rude- A Walk to Remember”.  

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तेरा एहसास.....

साहिल ,

शाम का बढ़ता अँधेरा तेरे चेहरे के उजाले से रौशन हो जाता है, 

तुझमे समाता है दिल मेरा, तो कभी समंदर के किनारों में ढूंढता है तेरा आशियाना 

इस दिल की ख़्वाहिश तो हर पल तेरे होने का सुकुन महसूस करना है,

ये एहसास और कुछ नहीं, मेरी ज़िन्दगी जीने का वजूद है!

तेरे सपने सजाए थे कभी इन नन्ही आँखों ने, जब दिल ने दिल को समझा था!

तेरा अक्स बुना था मैंने अपने ख्वाबो के धागो से, जब तेरा एहसास ही मेरा सबकुछ था!

अकस्मात् ही टकरा गया तू मुझसे इस भीड़ भरी दुनिया में!

सुकुन मिला दिल को जब देखा सपनो को मुक्कद्दर बनते, तेरे वजुद में ढलते!

It still impacts me.....

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One thing always hurts me and compels me to think about the reasons why god has created this world for us? What hurts more?? Love? Or its rejection or cold behaviour of your loved ones??

Life has always been cruel  to Vrinda and sometimes the most innocent child but in all these life's emotional trauma if something really impacted her mind then I would say its “Emotions” which impacted and created a substantial effect on her soul forever.

We make thousands of promises for future events which do not even exist while making such promises; but when gradually that time comes we realise how stupid we were!! We made several promises but life wanted something else from us.

This below mentioned emotional poem is a silent part of some untold emotions of a matured Vrinda who realised the main cause of her mental trauma but decided to be nice with the cruel life. This is how life goes on and keeps on moving with the flow.

 

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Was it really true?

I was standing near the crowded Mumbai beach,

My painful voice of heart was screaming shouting to call you back but to your egoistic heart it couldn't reach,

I stabbed inside my heart to take out my feelings for you,

My dreams were lying on the dying dew.

Were you really in love with me or were love lying only in me??

Emotional trauma of my heart why only you couldn't see??

Was it a love story of “I" and "you” or were there of us together "we"??

Were you actually working for us or just trying to be busy bee.

Thought of murder of our love story gives me a tremendous pain

I managed to walk miles to meet you in heavy rain.

You called my efforts and love as only a stain

Now I have shifted you from my heart to brain.

Was this so called feelings just a temporary love flue?

Or you actually had intention to stick with me like glue??

We plan so much for our future which does not even exist when we are together.

What is bad about Mumbai??

Actually it’s a great city to live if you want to stay in India. But the worst part of it is that your tears will get melt in heavy rain and your painful voice will remain unheard due to crowded voice of its population.

Love happens, gives immense happiness to everyone but it comes with the cost which is really expensive and for the whole life you will keep on compensating with your tears.

Love doesn’t hurt but if it happens to wrong person then it gives durable dark spots on your heart.  

What remains in your hand  after loving someone truly and relentlessly??

“ Just a thought of love and to be loved by someone special whom you had loved once and forever”

Yes, your memories and love still impacts me!!! 

Just can't define something.......

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Sometimes I miss you,
Sometimes I don't care for you,
Sometimes I forget myself
Sometimes I remember you and only you.

My life's worth I understood 
When I was alone,
That hope, I didn't loose when you said
"I don't want you" on phone!! 

My life could have been something else,
our story could have swimming in the river of vales
You didn't bother and I also didn't care
We showed anger and hatred whenever we met.

Still I say I do love you a lot,
More than anyone else could have thought.

Your memories running in my mind
Your fragrance is deep inside in me so fine
I live in your memories, I relive in our past
I do love you always no matter, whether you do or not.

Being with you is not my choice 
Loving you always is what I do a lot.
You are love of my life, you are my life,
anything except above could have wrong...........

My feelings for you is just nothing only a truth of my hidden emotions.