A Last Wish

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It’s very beautiful when you fall in love.. And it’s even more beautiful when he isn’t in your life but still you love him, you miss him each day but do not expect from him to love you back.  Yet, you love him- intensely and more deeply and that is the beauty of love. You still do those things what you used to do when you were together with him but now it’s only you.

Lahar- a young girl who always had an imagination of his Sahil.. Well, who is Sahil?? Sahil was not just a name for Lahar. He was her life, her childhood love, her imagination and everything for her.

Almost a year ago Lahar met her childhood imaginary love “Sahil” they both fell in love instantly, immediately as if cupid had made some plans for them and that plan was nothing just to stay together forever like a fairy tale of a Disney world.

Lahar always had fear to fall in love because she used to think if she loves someone so deeply he might leave her and she will have to live alone for rest of her life. May be scars of past was deeply rooted into her heart and fear of commitment never allowed that girl to take a rest even for a jiffy.  

Oh god, at last that time came she fell in love; she met a guy of her Disney world. Everything was so beautiful just like a story of Cinderella. His promising eyes were sounding louder than his words. She believed that he is the only person who is not going to leave her ever. Life was as beautiful as a fairytales were.  

Sahil always used to tell her if you love me love completely, dissolve me into you. You in me, I in you. Exactly the way river dilutes her into a sea, the way Lahar meets Sahil and leaves her memories forever.

Well, they were not meant to stay together but still were together and see the farce of love Lahar is still together. She still loves him the way she used to when for the first time she had got familiar with the word of love, she still has the same wish to see him once again, she is still falling in love all over again and she will continue to love him even more with each day and time and she shall meet him yet again; that’s her last wish..... 

Love doesn’t hurt it gives you even more strength......  

Another Dead End

You met her,  

She was your crush,  

You started flirting with her, 

You fell in love with her, 

You proposed her, 

She also fell in love with you but scared of her mental illness,  

You were madly in love with her, 

She was deeply in love with you but still scared,  

She was your physical necessity but you were her emotional need,
  

Your commitments were not convincing to her, 

She wrongly misunderstood your commitments, 

You didn't try to clarify anything and left her without any conversation, 

She turned mad once again, and made few despicable mistakes, 

You came back after some days and asked her to be  with you once again,  

She couldn't forget the pain of aloofness and refused to be with you,  

She realised some of her mistakes and confessed her truth to you; asked you if still you can accept her, 

You couldn't tolerate her truth and left her again,  

She once again turned mad but this time she just wiped her tears and smiled to move on from your memories, she couldn't go away from you because you were residing in her soul... 

But unfortunately she didn't even exist in your memories,  

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Another dead end of a love story......  

Unspoken Conversation

Unspoken words are lying in my old diary,
Feelings that had hidden emotions remained silent,
Stain of aloofness is still crimson,
Memories of past being too noisy to hear the sound of present

Love doesn’t hurt, though rejection does.
Life doesn’t stop, breath does,
Emotion doesn’t die; time passes away & fades the memories of past,
Memories die when the conscience remains unheard & silent in the noisy crowd.

Some unspoken conversation dies naturally but leaves their footprints in old diaries.       

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Double honour for VIBGYOR High Group of Schools at World Education Congress 2016....

VIBGYOR High Group of Schools has been awarded in two categories - ‘Best Operational Excellence in K12 Educational Institutes’ and ‘Award for Quality in Education’ at the World Education Congress 2016, held recently at Taj Lands End, Mumbai. Mr. Ashish Tibdewal, CEO & CFO, VIBGYOR High Group of Schools received the award on behalf of the institution from Mr. H. E. Lytou Bouapao, Deputy Minister, Ministry of Education and Sports, Lao PDR.

Expressing his views, Mr. Ashish Tibdewal, CEO & CFO, VIBGYOR High Group of Schools said, “I am glad to see our Institute being recognised for excellence in operations and quality in education. I would like to congratulate the entire team that has been instrumental behind this success. I am also thankful to the organisers for recognising and honouring us.”

Sharing her views, Ms. Kavita Sahay, Director-School Operations and Academics, VIBGYOR High Group of Schools said, “In our schools, we aim to provide the highest quality of education to our students to equip them with life skills required in the 21^st century. We lay utmost importance on our curriculum that aims at holistic development of our students. We also ensure uniformity in curriculum delivery by providing regular training and feedback to our teachers as a part of our Quality Audit and Guidance process. I would like to dedicate these awards to my entire team of Curriculum experts, QAG team, Principals and Teachers whose tireless efforts make such achievements possible.”

VIBGYOR High won these prestigious awards based on a detailed evaluation of various aspects of the institution, such as— Strategic Perspective, Infrastructure, Future Orientation, Track Record, Integrity and Ethics, Ability for Sustainable Education, etc. An Independent Jury consisting of Senior Leaders, Researchers and Academicians identified VIBGYOR High group of schools as meeting the required educational standards in the winning categories.

मुहब्बत की कश्मकश कुछ ऐसी भी रही........

साहिल, 

उसकी आँखों का वो एक आंसू मुझे नींद न देने वाली कश्मकश में फंसा गया। 

नम आँखों के बीच उसका मुस्कुराता चेहरा न जाने कब अनकहा अनजाना सा एहसास दिला गया। 

यूँ तो ढूंढती थी जिसे में भीड़ भरी दुनिया में, वह चलते चलते मुझसे यूँ ही अचानक टकरा गया। 

कुछ न कह कर भी मुझे वो सबकुछ कह गया, नम आँखों का अफसाना वो यूँ ही बयां कर गया। 

रात भर जागकर ये सोचती रही कि उससे मुहब्बत करूँ या उसकी इबादत करूँ। 

उसके साथ आशियाना बनाऊं या अपने दिल में उसके नाम का आशियाना सजाऊँ। 

उसे दिल के पास रखूं या इस दिल को उसके नाम कर दूँ। 

तुम ही कहो साहिल कैसे अपने जज़्बात उसके सामने बयां करूँ ??

काश सुन पाता वो इन सांसो के नगमे को जिसमे उसके सुर समाते हैं। 

काश पढ़ पाता वो इन शब्दों को जो मुझे उसके और करीब जोड़ जाते है। 

काश समझ पाता वो अनकही आँखों का अफसाना जिसकी सरगम उसकी सांसो की धुन सुनाती है।

एक साहिल ही है उसका नाम, जिसका नाम लेकर साहिल की लहर मिट कर भी अमर हो जाती है...  

                                                                   तुम्हारी,    

                                                                          लहर  .......   

 

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She Fell for him.....

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Continuation- And then........ !!!

I feel you somewhere at some unknown part of me

Irresistible love attraction given by thee

Desire turned into a destiny that I couldn’t see

Love for him was just increasing day by day that only I could feel.

An ocean cannot be as deep as his eyes were

Spongy eyes with innocent voice were whispering secretly into my ears

Inklings of his heart were so loud that anything else I barely could hear

He took me above the welkin of love that had fairy wings of layer

My love hopes before him was lying as a drop of dew

I had a wish to see the drama of love through his heart’s view

I was squeezing my hopes that was little and few

Attraction of love can turn into a rejection I never knew.

He said “No” to my little heart

Black eyes cried pinkie cheeks smiled

A sweet peck of my rosy lips I depicted on his face

I still love you baby, whether you do or not it’s just a matter of my fate.

  

Best Father, unfaithful husband- A letter to father

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Beloved Papa,

First of all I would like to say thanks to you and mom as you both gave me birth. You and mom didn’t kill me when I was in mom’s womb. I know that I was your unwanted child as you already had decent family planning but I came in this world by mistake. After an attempt of abortion I still survived completely by god’s grace.

Papa, I really love you a lot and I would be loving you this much even after my marriage and I know that you also love me a lot. You always have taken proper care of me. You always have saved me from the hardship of this artificial and filthy world. I always wanted to be your son instead of your daughter so that I can live with you forever and I agree that you never discriminated with me on gender basis. You taught me several things that helped me to survive in this world.

Today, I am a proud woman only because of you as you gave me proper education; you taught me moral values and most importantly you always encouraged me to fight for my rights. I remember how you supported me when the entire society was against me when I took a decision to call off my engagement.

We always have shared an awesome bonding of father and daughter. I always wish to god to give everyone a father like you but I do not wish that god should give anyone a husband as you are.

You were/are amazing father but not amazing husband. Since my childhood I have seen those fights between you and mom and after each fight mom used to cry a lot. I know that you had past affairs too and I believe you still have. I always ask myself that why didn’t mom leave you even after knowing that you have extra marital-affairs?? May be an illiterate woman from a rigid Indian Community do not have that right to access in order to protect her own self respect.

I don’t want my future husband/partner to be like you. Actually I do not expect any honesty or loyalty from male society as you have sown that seed in me. I have seen your cold behaviour towards my mom and that behaviour of yours turned me so stone-hearted that today I do not believe in the concept of marriage.

I know you were/are with mom because you had/have to be with her in order to perform social rituals and rites towards this artificial society. But your broken marriage has always given me a tremendous pain inside and consequentially I started getting scared from marriage talks.

I am afraid of commitment. I always feel if you’re this trait comes within me; or if my future husband/partner would do what you have done to my mom. I know it would become painful for you as well to see my sufferings but I guess that would be the only possible way that could make you to feel my mom’s pain.

Somewhere I try my best to understand your situations but being a woman I am completely against of sharing my husband/partner with any other woman.

You always ask me that what sort of person I want in my life as my future husband/partner I always scream inside me that “definitely not like you”. Yet, I still love my father in the same proportion as I hate my mother’s husband but I understand my mother’s husband’s love life and somewhere it was one of the reasons I never have  interfered between you and mom.

I know relations are complicated and confusing but you have made them in this way and I run from commitments because I don’t want to repeat this history. I don’t want to be that victim which sounds like my mom.

I want to stay alone forever if not alone then probably with the person without any expectations and commitments because I am afraid of commitments in real life. 

Yours,

 Unwanted Child.

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Its completely an imaginary letter intended to tell the men society that how you treat your wife is going to be judged by your own daughter, so be nice with your wife.... avoid domestic violence. Some domestic violence can be something similar to what I have stated in this letter... and this violence remains unheard within the four corners of a room.